Kelly Preston has opened up about how she learned to "live again" following the death of her and husband John Travolta's son Jett and the subsequent support she received from family, friends and the members of the Church of Scientology.
The 49-year-old actress and 58-year-old actor welcomed their third child, a baby boy named Benjamin, in November 2010. Their son Jett, who was autistic, died in January 2009 at age 16 after suffering a seizure.
"I've had enormous loss," Preston said on a recent episode of the Lifetime TV show "The Conversation with Amanda de Cadenet." "Nobody should have to lose a child. It's unfathomable. But I'm here to say that you can get through it. You can live again. You can want to live again."
She and Travolta also have a 12-year-old daughter, Ella Bleu.
"I feel like I would even have another child if I could, but that would be pushing it," Preston told de Cadenet. "The intention is there so you never know. But I'm not afraid to love and to love deeply and my kids, you know, help me with that. There's nothing like the love of a child and the love with your husband and what you feel for your husband or your partner ... when you share children together. It's the greatest thing ever."
Preston has talked to the press before about her son's death and the support she and her family received from the Church of Scientology. She told de Cadenet that the religion's practice of auditing, a form of counseling, helped them cope with their loss.
"That helps you to address things in your life and to strip away and work through ... and it's a path of spritual enlightenment and also it helps rid the mind of painful expreiences, but completely," she said. "And through that, navigating through that, the people at my church literally held my hand and got me through and got Johnny through and got Ella through and I will forever be indebted."
The Church of Scientology was founded in 1954 by science fiction writer L. Ron Hubbard. Preston and Travolta have practiced the religion for years, along with fellow celebrities Kirstie Alley, Travolta's co-star from the "Look Who's Talking" movies and a friend of his family, and Tom Cruise - Preston's co-star in the 1996 movie "Jerry Maguire."
Asked who she turns to "when times are tough," Preston told Heath magazine in late 2011: "Johnny is definitely my rock. Kirstie is one of my absolute best friends. My mom, my brother. And to be honest, the Scientology center."
Preston told de Cadenet that after her son's death, she sometimes felt as if she was "drowning."
"It felt like a sea of wet blankets," she said. "And I just peeled them off, layer by layer, so that I can now ... I want to live.' I love life. My life is beautiful and amazing and I've got amazing children and Jett is so much a part of my life."
"You never forget," Preston added. "But I feel like ... the weight of the world is lifted and there's still things that come up, for sure. But I am able to live and to want to live. I can laugh. I am for the most part, happy, and that's the greatest gift ever."