Amy Winehouse's father Mitch has been dealing with his daughter's death for nearly a year, but revealed that he still sends her text messages, wondering when she's coming home.
"Sometimes I text her telling her to come home. But she's never coming home and I'm going to have to deal with that for the rest of my life," Mitch, 60, told Grazia magazine, as the first anniversary of Amy's death approaches on July 23.
"In a way, subconsciously, it's a relief that I don't have to keep checking up on Amy," Mitch continued. "I'm not going through that pain every night wondering if she is going to die, what she's doing, or if she is in trouble... So in a way it's a little bit of guilt [on my behalf] because I am able to sleep at night now."
The Grammy-winning soul singer, known for her hit "Rehab" and her beehive hairstyle, died at age 27 in her London apartment in July 2011 from accidental alcohol poisoning after battling substance abuse for years.
Mitch Winehouse is currently promoting his book, "Amy, My Daughter," which was released on June 26.
Proceeds from the book are set to be donated to the Amy Winehouse Foundation, a charity her family set up after her death. In February, the group donated more than $47,700 to a rehabilitation charity that helps people recovering from drug and alcohol addiction.
"It's saved my life," Mitch Winehouse told the UK's Guardian of the Amy Winehouse Foundation. "Nobody should know what it feels like to lose a child. I lost my dad when I was 16; he was 43. We were very close. But losing a parent is not like losing a child. It's worse than awful. But the more I spoke to people about the charity, about helping people, especially people Amy would have wanted to help, it became my lifeline, so to speak."
The Foundation gives money to the Pilion Trust's Crashpad homeless shelter, several charities dealing with addiction and funds a scholarship to the Sylvia Young Theatre School, which Winehouse attended.
"What a lovely girl. What a lovely, funny girl," Winehouse said of his daughter. "It's a tragedy. But I've got to make the best of it. What do I do? Do I dig a hole and dive in it, which I felt like doing sometimes? Or do I come here, sit with these wonderful people at the charities and try to make a difference? That's what we're trying to do."
In March, it was revealed that Winehouse's parents, Mitch and Janis had inherited $4.67 million dollars from their late daughter. Mitch told the Guardian that the money from Amy's estate would go to her brother Alex and his future children.
A new Winehouse album called "Lioness: Hidden Treasures" was released last December and contains the track "Body & Soul," which Winehouse recorded with Tony Bennett. The song is also featured on his album "Duets II" and won Best Pop Duo/Group Performance at the 2012 Grammy Awards in February.
Winehouse's parents attended the ceremony and Mitch told OnTheRedCarpet.com, "We shouldn't have been there, really, Amy should have been there with Tony. But ... they are the cards we've been dealt and we gotta deal with it. So it's tough. Amy would say, 'Just get on with it Dad.'"