ISLA VISTA, Calif. (KABC) -- One of the survivors of the Isla Vista shooting rampage is speaking out. Bianca de Kock is one of three sorority sisters shot by Elliot Rodger and the only one to survive.
De Kock, who was shot five times, says when she thinks about last Friday's shooting, she still can't believe it happened. The image of Rodger pulling up to them in his black BMW is seared into her memory.
"I see his face. He smiles at me and just starts shooting -- like a smirky, grimacy smile, but it was a smile," said De Kock. "He wanted to do this. He looked happy about it."
Bleeding on the grass outside of the Tri Delta sorority house, De Kock managed to pick up her cellphone.
"I had to call my mom. I just told her, 'I've been shot. I don't know what happened. It's crazy. But I love you. I love you so much,'" recalled De Kock.
She is thankful to be alive but hurts for the others who did not survive.
"I'm in my own pain, but even more so, I'm in more pain for the losses that happened, for the loss of my friends and for the other four people," said De Kock.
Her sorority sisters, 19-year-old Veronika Weiss and 22-year-old Katie Cooper, represent two of the six people Rodger killed in the rampage, with de Kock and 12 others injured.
Rodger fatally stabbed 19-year-old George Chen, 20-year-old Weihan Wang, and 20-year-old Yuan Hong in his apartment. He fatally shot 20-year-old Christopher Michaels-Martinez at deli before shooting himself.
Santa Barbara Cottage Hospital trauma surgeon Dr. Pamela Lee said one of the hardest moments she experienced while treating the victims that night was having to tell de Kock that her two sorority sisters were dead.
"The moment she came in she was asking about her friends, and at that point none of us had any idea who survived or what happened," Lee told ABC News. "As the details started to come forward, we realized she was the one out of the three that survived. And her mom was very concerned about how she was going to react to the deaths, but she handled it with grace. She seems like a very strong girl, but obviously this has been really, really tough for her."
Lee said de Kock suffered five gunshot wounds; some grazed her body, while others were "through and through" injuries.
De Kock is taking the rest of the semester off from school, but she's standing by her fellow students in spirit as they honor the memory of the students who lost their lives.
As for Rodger, de Kock says she has never viewed his YouTube videos or read his manifesto. She tries to avoid any coverage given to the killer.
"I saw his face once when he shot me. I've seen it again on TV and on the Internet, and I don't care to ever see it again or talk about it again," she said.
She says she is trying to now focus on stopping mass shootings from happening in the first place. She believes one way is by honoring the victims and shifting the attention away from the killer.
ABC News contributed to this report.
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